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Opening Statement
00:40
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Where do I begin? (x2)
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Party Girl
04:51
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They say you have four years to find yourself
Packed into these halls with everyone else
But you didn't even have the grace to listen
You were finding out in the hardest way
The consequence of every mistake you could make
But you didn't have the notice to pay attention
I get it, you grew up in a Christian school
And I've seen it all before from beggars and fools
But I never would've thought, who ever would've thought that of their mom
You know it's funny I've always tried to hold myself to a higher standard
And lately I feel like I'm just failing under pressure
I want my childhood back, because my whole life has been spent beating your bar
Everyone's so damn trashed at this place
It's a Friday night
You won't stop until the Saturday sunrise
Down a shot, party girl, to all your worries and fears
You were a poster child now you're the patron saint
Of why I try live my life without making your mistakes
But in your head there is no thought
So take another shot, party girl
It couldn't be as simple as growing up because you grew up too fast
Or too slow as I realize now from my outside perspective
You had too much freedom and too much time
And yeah, I've been there now, and I'm still fine
I just wish you had kept some of your inhibitions
You brought me into this world against everyone's advice
Only to show me how cold you are, like a fucking block of ice
And now I'm left here wondering if we're both just stuck wasting our time
Why even bother trying to get along because like that's ever worked
You used my father despite always saying that the bastard had no worth
I've gotten so many mixed signals, is there anything left here to save
Everyone's so damn trashed at this place there's a sweet sixteen
For party girl who's way too young for the party scene
But like that ever stopped anyone, drink up or leave
And with her morals at an all time low
Party girl found her list of friends starting to grow
So take another shot
Don't give this a second thought, party girl
Poor party girl, did you get more than you bargained for
Pregnant at 16 now everyone thinks you're a whore
Ruined your golden years of youth because you couldn't resist
Giving up all to give growing up your all
You fell into the biggest teenage pitfall
And if you had the chance you'd probably make the same mistakes over again
Oh party girl I just want you to know your decisions were selfish
And maybe that's why we'll never have it all
It's easy for you to say that you made a mistake but in the end
You settled everything with yourself and left me to settle my own mind
[So where do I begin
I'll tell this story from the beginning to the end
Where do I begin
And when it's all over you'll know me as a friend] (x2)
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3. |
Sediment
03:11
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You settled everything with yourself and left me to settle my own mind
So gather around if you ever cared at all about my past and what it means to me
This is my life story so far or at least the important parts
And you and everybody will see
That no matter what growing up is never easy
And I'd love to help somebody else
But truth be told I'm writing this to help myself
Because I got so much extra weight and I'm getting real tired of this sediment ache
I have the ghosts of my past settled down in my bones like sand into gears
And I don't know much longer
I can stand waking up with all my monsters in my bed
So I'll write this all out and hope to get some rest
Growing up with you felt like growing up alone
You were never there, you never showed you cared
You're everything I never want to be
So don't credit yourself with who I am because you're who I'm not
I'm still growing and learning about myself, recovering from my mistakes
Won't let anyone own me, I'm pulling myself off of your puppet strings
I'm still growing and learning about myself, recovering from my mistakes
Won't let anyone own me, I'm pulling myself off of your puppet strings
I didn't know who I could trust
At six years old I was so young
You told me I had to grow up
I didn't make your mistakes and still I-
I got so much extra weight and I'm getting so tired of this sediment ache
I have the ghosts of my past settled down in my bones like sand into gears
And I don't know much longer I can stand waking up
With all my monsters in my bed
So I'll write this all out and hope to get some rest
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Time Out
02:40
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I grew up quiet, now I let my voice be heard
I can't be intimidated ever again to never say a word
About my past and how it all comes back to how life's not fair
16 at heart and falling apart as I turn 23 next year
I tried and failed at finding love
I tried and failed at giving up
I work myself too hard
I need to take a break
From everyone and everything
From life and death in this damn city
From my past and from my present
Or maybe all I need is someone to listen
So I scream my heart out
In hopes it drowns out
My biggest enemy, I can't get over myself
So I scream my heart out
To wear myself out
While I try to find where I'm supposed to be
All I ever wanted growing up
I found out it wasn't enough
To please the ones I wanted to impress
Now I'll get this off my chest
Fuck you all, now I work for me
Don't give a damn what you think
I can't afford any misplaced effort
One wrong leap and I fall to the pressure
So I scream my heart out
In hopes it drowns out
My biggest enemy, I can't get over myself
So I scream my heart out
To wear myself out
While I try to find where I'm supposed to be
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Integrity
02:03
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Remember you're wasting time
Recounting lies about your life
You know you don't mean a thing you say
This was never about falling in love or falling out
Like they all say
And now they all sing
So please stop seeking attention
And give a genuine expression because I can't relate
To all your sad songs about a girl you didn't date
Now that I've grabbed hold, I won't let go
Until I bring you back home
You think you know, you think that you know about rage?
You think you know, you think that you know about pain
Show me
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6. |
Lapse
02:15
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(Well it's been four long months since I sat down to tell you all about how I felt
About myself, and everyone else but I've been so overwhelmed)
Well it's been four long months since I sat down to tell you all about how I felt
About myself, and everyone else but I've been so overwhelmed
With living life for me no matter what who thinks
I've always tried to just be happy
And even though I'm all alone
I feel like I'm so close
But I'm still letting go, I'm still letting go of the past
They say it's just water under the bridge but the river lasts
And even though sometimes I feel I'm out on the coast
Somehow I still end up on my back
But I will keep on swimming 'till the world is in my grasp
With no looking back
It's been 11 months
I lost focus again
See I've been counting all my sheep while losing sleep
While somehow always sleeping in
I gotta get it together
Or risk losing all my friends
Because as hard as I try I can't get out of my mind how much I'd rather just stay in
So tell me, how do I get through this
I've always heard to put more feeling in my music
Well here it is
So sorry that I have to yell to convey the things I've said aloud
But maybe this will take me somewhere I haven't found
And maybe I'll finally be able to stare my demons down
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7. |
Perspective
03:24
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Here's another problem I haven't figured out how to solve
You think that everyone cares about you but in that you're just dead wrong
You taught me apathy instead of empathy and I swear that I'm not like you but you taught me everything
I shouldn't have to be like you to tell the truth, but I'm sick and tired of always being in such a shitty fucking mood
I wouldn't ever tell you not to be yourself
But I've hoped and prayed for days on days that you were someone else
And I've been writing all this out to let you know
That you're the reason that I can't stand coming home
I shouldn't have to be like you to tell the truth
I've had enough time to learn it's like you get off on abuse
But I know you're suffering too
And here's why I can never talk about this
You always make me out to be the hypocrite
And tell me that I'm full of shit
Well I've had enough; I'm over it
So please, stop seeking attention
You think that you know, what could you know about rage?
And tell me what could you know, what could you know about pain?
When I'm still holding grudges on a couple of kids who had me when they were 16
How could you possibly be angrier than me?
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